Because as we were walking through the orchard, I caught sight of a little girl out of the corner of my eye. A little girl being pushed by her mommy in a little pink car.
I looked twice, expecting something that couldn't have been there. But it wasn't until I turned to get a better look that I realized who I was looking for.
I expected to see Heather's hand at the end of that blue handle. I expected to see Maddie's face smile up at me.
But it wasn't them. And my heart broke open again.
I had been thinking about Maddie on my way there. About how the sadness of this never seems to diminish. About the aching pit that comes when I open my heart to this and about knowing that I can't close it. For so many reasons, I have to let myself feel and remember it.
During the summer, I rarely know what the date is. I came home to find out that today is June 7. Two months.
No, the sadness most certainly doesn't diminish. Nor does the number of times each day I think of Mike and Heather and their Maddie.
Keep remembering. Keep holding Maddie in your heart, even if you never met her. Just remember.
Posts
8 comments:
I never had the honor of meeting Maddie, or her parents, but I do think of her every day. She's definitely in the thoughts and hearts of the blogging world.
A day doesn't go by that Maddie, Heather and Mike are not in my thoughts!
Though I've never met the Spohr family, I feel as if I've known them forever and my heart goes out to them daily.
Maddie will never be forgotten!
I do, every day. I'm so glad you wrote about it, the time slips away and while I get the relief of forgetting, of focusing on other things, I know Heather and Mike never do. That breaks my heart.
I was just thinking yesterday about what day it was and I felt that sense of loss.
Your experience was a lot like one I had recently when driving along and spotting a little girl on the street being pushed in the same little pink car. The scene flashed by too fast to register fully but I felt really caught off-guard by it.
I'm glad you wrote this. So glad. I think about Maddie every day too.
I hadn't even heard of neither Mike or Heather's blogs until they lost thier Maddie. And yet, I cried right along with everyone as I learned of the life that was lost. Awful. The pictures stick in my mind as well. I am happy to have discovered a few more wonderful blogs, but saddened by circumstances surrounding them.
That little girl made an impact in way that may never be understood. Thanks for sharing this. That little face is forever in my mind and heart as well.
It amazes me how much she is in my thoughts. What a range of emotions to go through. Thanks for sharing.
I never met Maddie, but I followed her blog, and I think about her every.single.day.
Post a Comment
Comments are blogging gold...make me rich.
Anonymous jackass-isms will be deleted. If you're going to say it, own it.